Do you have any second think about giving up life? Of course, I don't mean end up our own lifes.
Yes I did.
It was strange, I couldn't help suffering about that, didnt't want to explain why would I do something I would never did.
I knew I could get over it, though.
26 May, it's a sunny day, first day of the holiday. Party time I suppose?
SPM is a huge problem which turns me into a girl who's trying to escape from reality.
Like I say, give up. Not to care about pass my exam with flying colours.
Human's memory can't just erase by eraser or delete it just pressing one button. NO, it just stucks in your mind.
Ya, people say you can ignore it, bury it up I wish I could, but I can't.
Without these memories, I lose my motivation.
It's hard to believe that people at a young age like me suffer for something like this.
Shouldn't a 17-year-old girl enjoys her life?
Life is such a bitch. Torture me, snach all the joyful times away from me.
I don't want people look down on me, I don't want to disappoint whom I'm trying to make them happy.
I'm getting more sensitive and overreact, like a human transfers to a vampire and the personalities starts to be magnified. I hate these feelings. It bothers me a lot.
I pretend not to care much things but I actually I do.
I pretend like I'm fine with that grounded life style but I actually don't.
I pretend like I'm a girl that people can fool around but I actually don't wish they go overboard.
I pretend like I'm good with the sarcasm but of course I don't.
Don't trust me whenever I say I'm fine, I'm fine whenever I'm with people.
BUT I'M STILL ME, those pain, those feelings, those memories will never go away, they appear whenever I'm alone.
I still can't trust people easily as I will never give anyone any single chance to destroy my life.
I'm still the insecure one.
Fine, I have to stop grumbling like an old lady.
Peace (:
